There are some things I just can't control. Weather, people, circumstances, etc.... I want to be part of something bigger than me. That means that I have to give up control. It is hard to do. We live in a society that lifts up people like Bill Gates, Donald Trump and Martha Stewart because they are "self-made" people. But God wants "God-shaped" people. I fight it, but it is what I truly want. Being shaped hurts. When I broke my leg years ago, the doctor had to move it around to put it back into shape. It hurt, but it was necessary. I think that is the way our relationship with God is. When He shapes us it hurts. He has to stretch us, move us, mold us and break us. Wow! But He has our best interest in mind. I want to be part of something that is beyond me. I want to see people changed because of God. Not something that I said or did. I want to win an entire city for Christ. Not just me, because that is impossible, but working with others who have the desire to be part of something beyond themselves. I want to see houses shake like they did in ACTS. I want to see fire happen in wet wood. I want to see a burning bush. I want to see hear God in a whisper. I want to see Jesus flow out of every part of my being. I want to love even when people kick me in the gut. I want to see Jesus in every person regardless of their background, dress, skin color, $$, etc... I am an optimist by nature. That has been tested of late. But I truly believe the world can get better. I know most Pre-tribulation people disagree, but if we have the power of Christ at our disposal, why can't the world get better. If not, why bother. I see God at work in other places. I can't wait to hear from God this week at Catalyst! I expect God to speak to me. I expect to be changed, moved and I will have to respond. I'm ready for something bigger than me!