Control or not to control?
I admit it, I like to have control of my life. The last 2 1/2 years it has been out of control. I have no power to control it either. Dysfunction is the name of my life right now. I'm frustrated, confused, hurt, angry, broke and tired. I give up trying to change things because I can't. I am beat, I admit it.
I know things will change. I know Romans 8:28 says all things work for good. I am a positive thinker by nature but now I have to face reality. I am not in control and I don't like it. It is a dry period. People who say they are doing things for the good of the church, have hurt my friends and my family. They don't understand what they are doing. They only want what they want. They nit-pick everything. They complain and whine. The squeeky wheel gets the grease.
When will the church be the church? Churches are "doing" church but not "being" the church. It is a consumer mindset. What happened to ministry? It has become maintenance and that causes problems. I don't want to hear another problem because I'm not allowed to solve it. I could make a decision if I was allowed to, but I'm not.
Wow! I feel better already. God is good. Excuse my rant.
posted by Kevin Bussey at 8/09/2005 12:31:00 PM
2 Comments:
Bro, I hate that you have so many struggles. I wish I could do more for you, but I feel as if every time I speak out it just causes you more trouble. Do what you think is right, but know that what I said to you was out of love for you and for those kids, and even those I spoke against. What happens with those kids, Kevin, is one thing you do control. It is your decisions that may change their lives forever. You CAN do what you have to do for the sake of those in the youth.
Maybe you don't want to hear from me right now. I pray your trip was a good rest and that you make the most of your time there to positively impact the lives of those kids.
Joe,
I did not mean you by any means. I feel better just ranting.
Thanks,
KB
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