Control or not to control?
I admit it, I like to have control of my life. The last 2 1/2 years it has been out of control. I have no power to control it either. Dysfunction is the name of my life right now. I'm frustrated, confused, hurt, angry, broke and tired. I give up trying to change things because I can't. I am beat, I admit it. I know things will change. I know Romans 8:28 says all things work for good. I am a positive thinker by nature but now I have to face reality. I am not in control and I don't like it. It is a dry period. People who say they are doing things for the good of the church, have hurt my friends and my family. They don't understand what they are doing. They only want what they want. They nit-pick everything. They complain and whine. The squeeky wheel gets the grease. When will the church be the church? Churches are "doing" church but not "being" the church. It is a consumer mindset. What happened to ministry? It has become maintenance and that causes problems. I don't want to hear another problem because I'm not allowed to solve it. I could make a decision if I was allowed to, but I'm not. Wow! I feel better already. God is good. Excuse my rant.
posted by Kevin Bussey at 8/09/2005 12:31:00 PM